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November 11, 2005 6:39 AM- Score: love machine, 0

It's dark outside. My hair is wet. The coffee is hot and has a nice froth of milk, but my heart is a bit sore. T has just left on a 4-day trip* and yesterday I was unable to restrain myself and FLAMED someone, which you know-- can have a backdraft.

*rubs scorch marks from face*

What happened to the f*cking love machine?!!? Wasn't that just Monday? For chrissakes? I'm so mad at myself and disappointed in my flimsy attempts to keep my f*cking ego in check.

*sigh*

And then, as serendipity would have it, to what beach did the waves carry my surfboard last night? Why to Brooke who happened to have posted JUST. FOR. ME.

My god-- I mean, I know my angels are pretty damn amazing, but just when I'm flailing around for something to get me back on my feet after being sucked into the vortex of petty human piffle I am presented with a f*cking zen manifesto specifically for PROJECT MANAGERS IN CORPORATIONS. She titled it: Zen and the Art of Release Management.**

I tell you, who needs to get high and contemplate how the universe is buried in their big toe when you've got this kind of sh*t happening in real life? Serendipity blows my mind.

However, in this moment? Time to go dry my hair, walk the dogs, flash greet the carpenters, get dressed and head to that place where I just can't seem to earn my wings. Dammit. Piss. F*ck.

And then I am here ON MY OWN in the great north woods-- living above an unheated garage with two mutts who may, or may not, run off on me. I might get a lot of stuff done, or not. But I'll be back on Monday with tales of my adventure, god willing and the creeks don't rise . . .

*He is competing in the U.S. National Carrom Championships-- he's been ranked as high as #4 nationally. However as he's been busy sanding floors et al, there's been no time for practice. But watch out Richmond, Virginia---I slipped a can of whuppass into his overnight bag. (I mean, c'mon-- if I can't use it, somebody ought to).

**I'm thinking she's sitting on a gold mine and should totally publish and this and sell it as a poster!! Move over Desiderata . . .

got 2 cents?



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Jillian says:
Goodness! Sorry to hear the corporate drones are irritating you. You'll always have one up on them though...do they get to go home to those lovely dogs and gorgeous views and hot husband and charmed cottage (read: amazing superhouse) in the woods? NO. They get to go home and suck an egg or something.
posted on: November 11

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Erica says:
Oh, dear. Certainly things will improve this weekend, though, because you won't have to go to the soul-sucking job. Perhaps you and the boyz can curl up under some quilts and eat good chocolate? I am now firmly committed to the idea that even a little bit of really good chocolate cures most ills.
posted on: November 11

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Sheryl says:
Wait, now I have to google carrom...ooo that looks fun, and hard! That's just like the love machine, it always stalls when you really need it *kicks tire*
posted on: November 11

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samantha says:
Last night a dear friend looked at me and said, "Don't worry, it's almost the weekend." Oh, yeah, the weekend where I have to BE somewhere by 8 one day and up by 6:45 the next? LOOKING FORWARD TO IT, BUDDY. I hope you and the boys get lots of snuggling time accomplished; because that's really what it's all about!
posted on: November 11

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violetismycolor says:
I totally believe that there are synchronous events happening around us, and speaking to us, all the time. Do we listen, is the question?
posted on: November 12

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bella says:
how 'bout we make us some funny brownies and forget our troubles? I'm game for some mood alterating B.S. downtime.
posted on: November 12

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La Dauphine says:
What's this Carrom game? Pretty game pieces - kinda looks like mahjong...
posted on: November 12

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Neil says:
Had to look up Carrom also? Never even heard of it. What an interesting guy you have! Does he also play Scrabble?
posted on: November 13

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Margaret says:
Just when I think I've heard of every sport or game, I realize the depths of my ignorance.
posted on: November 13

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Kestrel says:
I've never heard of Carrom! What sort of nutshell life have I been leading? :-o
posted on: November 13

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