Well.

I followed your collective advice(except for renting "The Money Pit"-- whaddya trying to do? Kill me!?) and I do feel like a new woman. This may also be due to the fact that the temperature outside is more beautiful than what we get here in May and I am positively intoxicated on air right now.

However, that is only part of the transformation.

We went away this weekend--- up to Vermont with T's brothers and sisters and their kids-- and it was lovely. They skied. I spa'd. And, I must abso.lutely share my new favorite thing: Thai massage. Have you ever had this done? Oh. My. God. Heaven on earth. Heaven. I will never be the same again.

I had no idea what it was when I signed up for it. The woman told me it was a lot of stretching and I would wear loose, yoga clothes-- and I'm thinking, stretching sounds good since I am wired tighter than a drum.

But then I told my sisters-in-law what I was doing and they said, "ew, they're gonna walk on your back." Which made me a bit apprehensive and I figured I would just tell the therapist up front that I wanted to opt out of the "walking on my back" part. But when the woman who was going to give me the treatment walked up to me, she was tiny. Petite. And I thought, hell-- she can walk on my back, I don't care.

But there was no back-walking. It turns out Thai massage was developed for Buddhist monks before they go into deep meditation. And I have to say, I felt like a Buddhist monk when I came out. I was insanely serene. A terrorist could've walked up to me with a bomb in his hand and said he was going to blow up the building and I would have smiled and said, "ok!"

Serene.

Fabulous--- in a dream state.

And, I am also taking Lizardek's advice and have contacted a recruiter and am beginning a job search. Stay tuned on how that develops.

So. It's pretty clear to me how much y'all are helping me get my life sorted---- is it clear to you? And, I know there's been some serious ass troll/snark/nasty stuff going on at different sites I read with people just wigging---- but I have to say, I'm amazed at the love and support I get from blogging. If my mind wasn't already dialed in to Serenity Central-- I would say the idea of receiving so much kindness from strangers would blow my mind.

But nothing can blow my mind. My mind is gone. And I don't miss it. Not one bit.

Oh, and P.S. -- for those of you who comment-- the "http://" is ALREADY there-- if you type it in, your address doesn't function--- just an FYI . .

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